The internal thought of a mind enslaved by freedom

#8 new hobbies, Get out there and do something.

2009-04-22T23:45:00.000-07:00

I know its been a while, yet since no one reads these things this has become sorta like a journal/diary or just some thing to keep me busy on these delicious spring nights.

and yes new hobbies.
people ought to just do something random and new every day. just look for some thing to make something to create. expand the mind. for instance i've discovered how fun and easy it is to make hemp bracelets its a great way to give cheap and meaningful gifts. i put emphasis on "meaningful"

but back to the point i mean the world is so big and so out there and so whatever the hell you wanna call it. I'm always disappointed to hear about some one who could draw or some one who has an immense imagination or creativity simply let it wither and die out.
so to every one who doesn't read this go out there find your skill and just do some thing other than smoke all my pot or drink my Jack Daniels .... yea i don't know

# 7 Will & Brian and i the listener

2008-04-15T21:27:00.000-07:00

not really a thought but they talk about alot of interesting things, and it has a preview to a very anticipated game.

#6 Taken for granted

2008-03-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

So yea... it just came to mind... while watching the food channel.

a steak eating competition.

72. ounces

3 guys trying to eat one ...

none succeded

after i finished watching my only thought is
"only in america...."
which is kinda funny really that instead of trying to get food lk most of the other areas of the world, were trying whatever diet we can find and trying to just loose weight. can we just send some one over there a 72. ounce steak? im sure they'd appreciate it .... well i have no idea just a random thought i mean im here drinking some tagerine juice, cuz i had some extra tangerines,
so i made juice.
cuz im too lazy to just eat one so instead i'd rather have them in liquid form.

at least i acknowledge it
(it makes us feel better when we say stuff lk that)

#5 gR@M-R & Sense

2008-03-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

Having proper grammar Is important, but is it necessary? well no if we bring sense into the picture. Grammar is more of a... courtesy toutch, it shows that the speaker or writer is, in a sense, a bit more classy. however in terms of necessity and sense it is un-nessesary.

-Although he said .

-Athluogh he siad .

Oddly enough i'm sure you can make sense of the second sentance. If u read it letter for letter youve something that dosent belong, but who does that? go back and read the two and you'll notice that we dont pay much attention to the individual placement and order of letters, but instead we identify words on pretty much form. if the first and last letter remain we can identify it.

-Althuogh he siad it wuold be esay, it wsan't

So even if it looks like crap you can read it, so where does grammar fit into all this?
we are humans and as humans we need some form of order. thats why we cant write essays like that. its not that its important its just un-necessarily necessary.

#4 Belief and Religion

2008-03-06T01:24:00.000-08:00

when it comes to this topic.
its hard to tell.
there are just too many options. So many options. Im not one to go off and accuse, but ive just tooken a long session of research on Scientology. I , I have no idea it just scares me .
but we'll get to that lets stay on topic.
Religion has been with us since, well as far as written documentation can tell, a long time. and it will be here for a long time as well.
Polytheism, the earliest of the religious belifes, depends on more than one god, example, greek gods; Zeus, Hera, Athena ect... Each god in a polytheistic belife usually serves some purpose with regards to life or feelings. Again greeks as an example; Hera goddess of marriage.
Polytheism was a more primitive form of religion. It seemed to serve more as a reasurance or an explanation of the unknown.
Monotheism is now a much more popular form of religion. There are many, and i mean MANY. Christianity, Catholic, Mormon, Judaism, all off these essentially are all variations of the same religion and lets not over-complicate ourselves with the hundreds of other religions. Now what do all monotheistic religions have in common? the one creator. The one allmighty, usually, he has rules that promote good judgment and morals. It all ends with the same promise; a great after life. Heaven is the goal, it is your reward for commiting your loyalty. Some promise more than others, like an advertisment.

What do they both have in common? an explanation to the greatest question to mankind.

how?

And ofcourse the rules, Judaism no pork, Catholic... well they have alot, regardless. these belifes again only furthur seperate our species and we all know of religious wars. The titan religions that have been carved into our very lives. It is a taboo to question them, they simply are, even if they lack even the basic proof or explanation (Creationism).
Now lets turn our head away from organized worship, in our modern era we seem to have a many amount of people either Athiest or Agnostic. Atheism bieng no god whatsoever, and agnostic bieng yes god and no religion. these two groups form, from what i see (in my own highschool) the largest population. Then there are always the modern Catholic/Christian, that is the term i use for the multitude of people that just wear the title of Christian or Catholic. These people while claiming to be part of that religious group perform NONE of the expected habits.
There are alot of these people as well.
This apperant problem of having so many beliefs and ideas and religions leaves me with one question.

"Who is right?"

That question is for the individual to solve alone.

But lets back track a bit. SCIENTOLOGY!!! i think it is quite important that you, the reader are informed about this.... Belief. if you dont feel like reading go on You Tube, and i can guarantee you'll find out some very interesting things.... Lets start with their basics. L Ron Hubbard main founder of the belief and author of Dinetics.

"Dianetics is a sub study of Scientology that deals with the reactive mind, the "bank" of traumatic experiences known as engrams which are said to inhibit success and happiness"- quote from wikipedia.com

Yea and it only gets more interesting. The story is millions of years ago an extraterestrial dictator named Xenu brought billions of enslaved and drunken alliens to earth and put us around volcanoes then used hydrogen bombs to blow us up.... ill post the segment

"Among these advanced teachings, one episode revealed to those who reach OT level III is the story of Xenu (sometimes Xemu), introduced as an alien ruler of the "Galactic Confederacy." According to this story, 75 million years ago Xenu brought billions of people to Earth in spacecraft resembling Douglas DC-8 airliners, stacked them around volcanoes and blew them up with hydrogen bombs. Their souls then clustered together, stuck to the bodies of the living and continue to do this today. Hubbard called these clustered spirits "Body Thetans," and advanced-level Scientologists place considerable emphasis on isolating these alien souls and neutralizing their ill effects"- quote from Wikipedia.com

So yes according to them we are Body thetans.

i my self am an atheist and take no part in this scramble for preaching and recruitment of people, i belive it is every ones choice to take part in their own belief, i can only say this though... please above all teachings remember common sense.

#3 a feeling i hope some one els has had.

2008-02-20T21:44:00.000-08:00

is any of this bulshit real?
life seems too odd to be real sometimes
i truly doubt when im standing that im somewhere on earth,
but rather in my own or someone els's dream.

either way. my brother told me this i think its making me insane
he said "crazy people dont admit they are crazy" ok now think.....

if you are sane i belive, this is what you are thinking

im not crazy...
but by not admiting it you are crazy
but then by saying we are crazy by not saying we are crazy means we are not crazy
then the cycle starts again.

danm... in the end you have to leave it to chance and hope you arent crazy.

not smart but logical.

my second post: we're all different

2008-02-18T17:59:00.000-08:00

here I am in a room, constructed much like the one you are in. you are without a doubt looking at a computer much like mine. yet oddly enough despite our surroundings we retain such a level of individualism sometimes its hard to understand.
Im still going to high school currently a sophmore and it never fails to suprise me how often some one will gasp gawk or gag at our own oppinions or belifes. I personally am an atheist, and as you would expect it comes as a suprise to many. I get alot of "you just havent found you're path yet." but see this is what i mean by "hard to understand" why must some one be like ourselves? why must someone belong to something?
I do not consider my self indefferent from this funny habit. I LOVE starwars and cant understand why someone els dosent, or when i like a certain food and some one els dosent its just, well odd. its just the way we are, who knows how complex we are to vary on such, miniscule matters but this reality can be much more seriouse than a disagrement of "vanilla or chocolate?".
not that this post will save lives or change the world like my title its just one of those thoughts that sparks an inner mental debate.
so continuing with this idea of icredible individualism. first i think( confirming my idea of accusation) "why cant every one see what i see?" but then i realize. I dont see what they see,for better of for worse no one can admit defeat in a debate about personal belifes, we defend them with tooth and nail. unfortunatly this makes us prone to attacking or challanging someone els's personal belifes or ideas. relegiouse extremism is just one of the many ways individualism can be intensly severe. to many 911 comes to mind when on this issue but there are so many cases. the white supremissist kkk for example.
its just odd that when it comes to what we belive in, we take such extreme measures to make it heard.

kind of makes you wish we would all just write a blog about it.

my first post

2008-02-12T23:44:00.001-08:00

well.
ive no idea what to write about.
something people can relate too.
unfortuatly that is rather impossible unless it were eating sleeping and breathing.
so ill scrap that idea and choose to write about something that is rather hard for people to relate too.
our inner most thoughts.